Happy Easter or Passover!
Spring has sprung. There is something wonderful about celebrating meaningful holidays as the weather is getting warmer.
We are still busy moving everything over to the new house and unpacking. It is really overwhelming, which surprises me. The hubby and I have moved a few times in our life together and I have never been this consumed with the unpacking process.
It is alright, though. I will not let it stress me out. We have a lifetime to make it perfect, right?
Holidays are a time for reflecting and rejoicing. I grew up believing that the more friends I had and the bigger I made my family, the more I would be loved. Or feel loved. I now see that I was looking at it all wrong. Yes, you can have lots of people around you all the time or you can try to plan the most wonderful holiday celebrations, BUT only the people who truly want to spend the time with you are worth having there at all. It took major drama for me to take a step back and realize that even if it is just me, the hubby and kids, then that is all I need. No amount of friends coming over, in-laws feeling obligated or family members not really wanting to stop by will make the day feel accomplished. I know that I just end up with an empty feeling in the pit of my stomach because I have forced something.
I used to try and plan 'wonderful' holiday get togethers, the more the merrier; whoever can make it, come on over. After I took my rose-colored glasses off, I realized 'well, gee, no one really wanted to be here, and look at that - the four of us just had the most special time together!'.
Sometimes I do miss having the house full of every person I know, but I can appreciate spending quality time with the most important people in my life. When the time is right, I'll have that great big family get together that I would like to have for my side of the family; but until then, me and the hubby will just spoil those two creatures we created and show them that celebrating equals family.
My door is always open to those that want to share time with us, and I hope those in my world know that.
And if I don't get to share the holiday with them, my wish is that they are enjoying their celebrations.
Sending hugs and kisses to you all!
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